So its been about a month and I guess I have new news. Looks like we are on for an IVF at the end of August. Which means I get to start my shots again in about a week and a half (pardon me if i don't insert an enthusiastic yay here, but those things suck!)
We had a little scare today, apparently our egg donor couldn't remember to take her birth control pills on schedule and missed a couple. Now we are trying to salvage this cycle and let me tell you after my last experience I am not thrilled at the idea. The doctor said something like 50/50 chance that we will get awesome embryos and have no problems - but my question is...what the heck happens if we don't? I don't really want to go into this with a 50/50 chance that I am going to have to go through a miscarriage and D&C and such again. I know its not my baby, so that part at least isn't that hard...but physically it is ROUGH. It hurts like hell, its exhausting and frustrating and mentally draining. I want to be a surrogate for these amazing men, but I am terrified of another failed attempt. I want to yell at the egg donor. I mean, you are getting paid a lot of money. you KNOW you have to take this pill, you HAVE to follow your calendar, you HAVE to take your shots or things can be ruined. How on earth then did she managed to miss 2 pills??? I mean, kudos to you for calling the doc and being honest and appologetic...but what good does sorry do me? None.
Well, I guess I am done venting for the day. Hope this finds you all well. Will post again when I have any new news.
